THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL Mother Dear Mother It's Cold Tonight Like Every Other Every Other Night But I Never Feel Feel It Anyway I'm Gonna Need Something Something Soon I Can Feel It Feel It Begin But I Don't Know How I'm Gonna Pay It Must Be About Mid December Right Now And I Think I'm About Seventeen I'm Not Real Sure How Old I Feel I Lost My Thoughts In Some Dream Oh Mother I Don't Know How I Got Where I Am But I'll Try To Explain Anyhow See Gradually You Get Sucked In Into It Without Ever Really Realising Just What's Happening And That Is When The Downward Spiral Begins Anyway Back To How It All Started It Started With Dope Why Not After All It Was Just The Once, I Told Myself I Didn't Even Like It Very Much But The People I Was With All Did It Then I Tried Speed Why Not After All, It Was Just The Once I Told Myself The Next Thing I Knew I Was Doing A Couple Of Grams A week Then A Friend Introduced Me To Smack- Chasing The Dragon Why Not After All It Was Just The Once I Told Myself Why Not After All It Wasn't using A Needle Then I Started Doing What I Said I'd Never Do - You Guessed It Mother I Remember All The Marks It Left Up My Arm Just Trying To Find My Vein Sometimes It Would Hurt Hurt So Much But I Kept On Going Ignoring Ignoring The Pain As I Sat With Blood Pouring Down My Nose And Nose And Throat I Lost Contact Contact Contact With The Real Real Real Me I Wasn't As Careful As I Should Have Been And Soon It Began To Show I Started To Feel Tired And Very Sick And I Watched My Eyes Eyes Turn Yellow It Was Just About Then That I Parted With Drugs And Just Had A Drink Now And Then But Even Before I Was over Hep I Had My Friend In My Arm Again I Met Up With A Girl A While Ago She Was Living The Same Life Lost In The Same Dream We Shared A Room In The City Though You Couldn't Really Call It Home Well It Seemed As Though Drugs just Destroyed Her Will To Live She Always Had A Smile For Me Though Even When She Was Filled With Pain I Remember That Grey Day She Lay Still On The Floor Needle Still In Her Arm Eyes Staring At The Wall The Tears Didn't Come Right Then I Don't Know If They Ever Came But Something In Me Died Back Then And I Know It'll Never Be The Same It Seems Like Years Ago But I think It Was Only Yesterday The Picture's Still Locked In My Mind And I Know It Will Always Stay It Will Always Stay After Reading This This To Myself I Know I Know You'll Be Filled With Pain So Please Please Keep My Memory Close To Your Heart And Your Love Love Love For me The Same Cause At This Stage I Need Need Your Friendship More Than Pity Friendship Friendship More Than Pity Friendship Friendship More Than Pity Friendship More Than More Than Pity And Maybe Just Now I Can Tell You The Reason For All These Drugs These Drugs I'm Taking For Although I'm So Scared Of Dying I'm Terrified Terrified Of Living
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